3/20/2024 0 Comments Goodbye letter to my addiction![]() ![]() You had me convinced that my kids could live without me and that things would be better that way. You took everything from me but it was never enough. Together you broke me down, took advantage of my kindness and took me to places physically and mentally so dark that I will never be the same person I once was. The other addicts you brought into my life hurt me more than I knew humanly possible. You were all I had to hold onto but now that you are out of my body physically, I am back in control and I see that everything you gave me was fake and toxic. I thought if I can’t have you then I’d rather be dead, you were all I wanted and needed for so long. I choose be the mother and woman you would not let me be! I now put my family first instead of you! Somehow you took away everything I cared about and then left me EMPTY wanting to die. I now choose to take back the parts of me that you took away. I’m done hurting, I’m done searching, I’m done giving up and giving away my life and soul to something that sucks at me until all that was left was a shell of myself. Tired/not tired…it was insanity and you are not my answer-not ever again. I chose you over anyone or anything without skipping a beat, you were my answer to everything. I’ll never be able to take back the things I’ve said or done and I’ll never be able to make up for the lost time that I spent alone with you dropping my morals and values so there was always space for you. You made me hurt the only people who truly cared for me, missing birthdays holidays Christmases I’ll never get back. ![]() I lost my intuition and any sense of who I was, it all went up in smoke. You showed me the true evils of the world that I wish never discovered. You made me so cold and evil and brought out a monster, a monster I still know is within me but I will never let you take away my light again. You made me feel like everything was fine and I had it all together when actually you were the source of my pain and suffering. Through police raids, loosing custody of my children, breakups, arrests, totaled cars, getting robbed, kidnapped, fights, high speed chases, all the money lost, heartbreak, breaking hearts, relationships-real and fake, endless nights that turned into mornings…you were my only constant. You were always there for me just a hit or a shot away. I am done with the back-and-forth and don’t ever want to see you again but there’s a few things I have to say so I can move on with my life.įor so long I’d do anything for you because you were the best friend that I had ever had. It’s me again I haven’t seen you in a while but it’s for good reason. Would you share your letter with us when you finish? They are POWERFUL!!! I’ll attach mine Heroin, Meth, and all of your little friends…… This took a few days of piecing together the good/bad/ugly of my addiction. This helped me tremendously in my recovery! It was the turning point for me, saying goodbye and I’m done with you and pretty much just breaking up with drugs and alcohol….I’m proud of my letter and anytime I’m feeling complacent in my life I turn to it for a reality check. ![]()
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